My Beautiful Mess

From where I am
From where I’ve been
He’s been there with me
He’s built a monument
-from David Crowder Band’s “O Praise Him”

Because of my perfectionistic tendencies, I tend to get overwhelmed easily. Not being able to be at least “decent” at all the things I want to accomplish in my life makes me just shut down some of those things in my life. SO, when I was approached at work as being Acting Executive Director for a period of at least 60 days, I shut down the blogging. I was only able to focus on work and the priorities of my household -and even then, I probably didn’t do those as well as I would have liked!

And of course there was always the “well, no one would miss this blog anyway so why bother” aspect. I do thank you, girls (and my precious hubs), for the comments saying you were still around! But again, I am back at blogging because…well…I would miss this blog! And yes, Hope, because I just finished planting flowers for this Spring, I have to post some pics somewhere!

So for the 5 weeks I worked almost full-time, let me just say that….I HAVE NO IDEA HOW FULL-TIME, ALL-THE-TIME WORKING MOMS DO THAT!! You are amazing! Though I do think I will be one of those moms again in the not-too-distant future, I applaud those of you who give yourselves to a job and to your kids and to your house and to your friends etc etc - and do so with grace and dignity. A mom-ument must surely be built in your name!

Working full-time was both fulfilling and draining. The opportunity took me completely by surprise and I felt honored to be considered. Once again, God answered prayers in my life in an unexpected way. I had begun to feel a little discontent in life, like I could be, or should be, doing more. Plus, we have some credit card debt hanging over our heads that I was seeing NO way to make a good dent in. God answered both of those through this temporary position, and I am humbly amazed at His goodness, once again.

I am proud of were I work, the people I work with, and the ways we serve others. Being in a leadership position gave me an even greater feeling of ownership of the place. We had a great response to our Open House and a positive annual United Way site visit. Thanks to my hubs, we finally have a website so check us out! Beginning this week, I go back to my 11-12 hours a week - and it feels odd. But it also feels good. Feels good to have some time to myself, time to blog, and time to work in my flowerbeds!